hello wonderful readers!

this is a more relaxed post(lets not talk about the last post i made earlier today). I’m going to be sharing some poetry I’ve written throughout this school year. Keep in mind I’m not really that great at it and I don’t really have that ‘poetry pizazz’.

poems will be separated by _____

basically all of these are unfinished(most likely permanently but meh).

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my silence chitters

its wings fluttering softly

my tongue tastes metal

in the form of red liquid

yet somehow invisible when i look

my breath is quiet

no one can hear

anything but silence in the room

the silence is quiet

yet deafening

roars in my ears grow louder as the seconds pass

my ears feel they are bleeding

my eyes feel they are stinging

my heart feels it has stopped

a pair of eyes stare at me

into my soul

they see

my emotions

my heart

my struggle

and yet

and yet they say nothing

and I’m left

left with eyes

downturned and watery

I can’t look

can’t move my eyes upward

can’t make eye contact with them

it’s too much

I swallow dry air

my tongue sticks to the roof of my mouth

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my eyes downturned

i space out

i’m only half concious

of whats going on

loud voices skip by my ears

music blasts away my fears

my eyes stare solely

my limbs heavy

i feel like a corpse

i want to fall

endlessly

i wish i could sleep

endlessly

i want to fall face first into the desk

that i’m supposed to be working on

i wish i could sleep

as i listen to one song on repeat

my eyes water every time i yawn

i yawn every few minutes

endlessly

it never stops

i’m so tired

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trees fill my sight

my eyes absorb everything

as i hear the rustling of the leaves

the breeze

its there

brushing my face

blowing past my ears

scents of fruits and flowers are welcomed into my nose

as i sit on the dirt path

the path that traisl into the small forest outside my home

there are dandelions beside the trail

many of them

scattered around with grass all around them

my heart

the leaves tatter to the ground softly

down onto my head softly

the various shades of green and brown surround me

the chittering and noises made by the animals around me

ah

how i love fall feelings

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my breath puffs out into the chilly air

my eyes burn holes into the sight in front of me

the building

it’s a house

a home

he says its our new home

but that cant be

he has to be joking

i see no sign of humor in his face

hes serious

his words strike my heart viciously

and yet i smile and talk as though nothing is wrong

but everything is wrong

we would switch schools eventually

he tells us

how cruel

for my heart to be crushed at the thought

though its the best move

the best option

for everyone

for the family

how selfish of me

for my heart to clench in sadness and partial anger

at the fact that I will have to leave my friends

my friends

the ones i care for

they are everything

everything

and i am nothing

i often tell my friends

i exist

and i do

yet i feel as if i am not apart of this world sometimes

and other times, i feel like i am too involved in this world

how can ones emotions be so contradictory

and yet, so difficult to identify

that night, the sky is dark

its darkness envelops me while im in bed

its a great cover for my face

for my tears

the liquid tears that stream down my face as i ponder

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i continue my work

writing numbers and more numbers

repetitively

they turn to me

and ask

are you okay

i dont know what they were thinking in that moment

i dont know how they could tell

that lately ive felt like the whole world was crushing me

i felt fine before they asked

but when they asked

it all came crashing down

my feelings

the ones id been trying to shove down and forget about

when the words come out of their mouth

tears sting at my eyes

appearing out of nowhere

so suddenly it surprised me

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my bags crash to the ground as i drop into the chair

my eyes sting

my heart jumps to my throat

my hands rise up to rest my head in them

my bones tremble

my fingers tremble as they lay on my head

covering me

shielding me as i let the tears come down

my breathing quickens

eyes fill up with endless tears

sight is blurry

throat is stuck

i shakily suck in sharp breaths

i know that if i dare open my mouth, sobs will rip themselves out of my chest

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thats all the poetry i made that im sharing today!

 

thank you for reading !

drawing addict out~