hello wonderful readers!
this is a more relaxed post(lets not talk about the last post i made earlier today). I’m going to be sharing some poetry I’ve written throughout this school year. Keep in mind I’m not really that great at it and I don’t really have that ‘poetry pizazz’.
poems will be separated by _____
basically all of these are unfinished(most likely permanently but meh).
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my silence chitters
its wings fluttering softly
my tongue tastes metal
in the form of red liquid
yet somehow invisible when i look
my breath is quiet
no one can hear
anything but silence in the room
the silence is quiet
yet deafening
roars in my ears grow louder as the seconds pass
my ears feel they are bleeding
my eyes feel they are stinging
my heart feels it has stopped
a pair of eyes stare at me
into my soul
they see
my emotions
my heart
my struggle
and yet
and yet they say nothing
and I’m left
left with eyes
downturned and watery
I can’t look
can’t move my eyes upward
can’t make eye contact with them
it’s too much
I swallow dry air
my tongue sticks to the roof of my mouth
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my eyes downturned
i space out
i’m only half concious
of whats going on
loud voices skip by my ears
music blasts away my fears
my eyes stare solely
my limbs heavy
i feel like a corpse
i want to fall
endlessly
i wish i could sleep
endlessly
i want to fall face first into the desk
that i’m supposed to be working on
i wish i could sleep
as i listen to one song on repeat
my eyes water every time i yawn
i yawn every few minutes
endlessly
it never stops
i’m so tired
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trees fill my sight
my eyes absorb everything
as i hear the rustling of the leaves
the breeze
its there
brushing my face
blowing past my ears
scents of fruits and flowers are welcomed into my nose
as i sit on the dirt path
the path that traisl into the small forest outside my home
there are dandelions beside the trail
many of them
scattered around with grass all around them
my heart
the leaves tatter to the ground softly
down onto my head softly
the various shades of green and brown surround me
the chittering and noises made by the animals around me
ah
how i love fall feelings
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my breath puffs out into the chilly air
my eyes burn holes into the sight in front of me
the building
it’s a house
a home
he says its our new home
but that cant be
he has to be joking
i see no sign of humor in his face
hes serious
his words strike my heart viciously
and yet i smile and talk as though nothing is wrong
but everything is wrong
we would switch schools eventually
he tells us
how cruel
for my heart to be crushed at the thought
though its the best move
the best option
for everyone
for the family
how selfish of me
for my heart to clench in sadness and partial anger
at the fact that I will have to leave my friends
my friends
the ones i care for
they are everything
everything
and i am nothing
i often tell my friends
i exist
and i do
yet i feel as if i am not apart of this world sometimes
and other times, i feel like i am too involved in this world
how can ones emotions be so contradictory
and yet, so difficult to identify
that night, the sky is dark
its darkness envelops me while im in bed
its a great cover for my face
for my tears
the liquid tears that stream down my face as i ponder
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i continue my work
writing numbers and more numbers
repetitively
they turn to me
and ask
are you okay
i dont know what they were thinking in that moment
i dont know how they could tell
that lately ive felt like the whole world was crushing me
i felt fine before they asked
but when they asked
it all came crashing down
my feelings
the ones id been trying to shove down and forget about
when the words come out of their mouth
tears sting at my eyes
appearing out of nowhere
so suddenly it surprised me
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my bags crash to the ground as i drop into the chair
my eyes sting
my heart jumps to my throat
my hands rise up to rest my head in them
my bones tremble
my fingers tremble as they lay on my head
covering me
shielding me as i let the tears come down
my breathing quickens
eyes fill up with endless tears
sight is blurry
throat is stuck
i shakily suck in sharp breaths
i know that if i dare open my mouth, sobs will rip themselves out of my chest
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thats all the poetry i made that im sharing today!
thank you for reading !
drawing addict out~