Although some may not agree with it, I am sure that every single person on this earth has heard the saying “Everything happens for a reason.” If I received a dollar for every single time someone said that to me throughout the course of my life, I would rich by now. Even though I have been told this so many times, I still wonder to myself if I even should believe it. I mean, why should I? I have witnessed plenty of things in my life where bad things happen to good people and good things happen to bad people for no reason that I can identify. How come good people have family members diagnosed with a life threatening illness? How come there are bad people that only wish malic on people but win the lottery? So, why do these things happen? I have never discovered why something happened after knowing that the specific person did not deserve it, so why do so many people drill this concept into my brain when I have never actually seen evidence that it is true?
Do other people feel this way or am I the only one that questions this saying? I find it hard to believe that so many people live by this saying just because they believe it and don’t actually see evidence that it is true. I hope one day I see this evidence and can trust that even though bad things may occur, they always happen for a reason.
I have never really struggled with time management until this year. I value time so much, and I wish I had more of it. It is so hard for me to pick what I am going to devote my time to. With the thought of leaving for college and starting the next chapter next year, I feel like I have so much to do with such little time. How come time flies so fast when you know you have only a little left? Lately, I always have to think about my priorities and which one is worthy of me dedicating me time to. Should I use my time to go to bed early so I am rested for my test tomorrow? Or should I use my time to study for my test so I can know the material better, even though I will be more tired? Or should I use my time to finish my common app that has been hanging over my shoulder for months? Should I use my time to go watch a movie with my mom, considering I only have one more year at home with her? Nowadays, I really think about how little time I have. I am not sure if this quarter and this year is just flying by for me, but I really feel like I am going to blink my eyes and I will be standing in the ion center getting ready to walk up and get my diploma. I really took periods that I didn’t stress about not having enough time in my life for granted.
A few months ago, I would say “Oh, my senior homecoming will never come”. I would say “College? Oh, I have so much time until I have to stress about that.” I would say “I can’t wait for my senior powderpuff game, even though it’s so far from now”. Just like that, I blinked my eyes and we are almost through the first quarter of my senior year. I have lived through my last ever homecoming spirit days and pep rally and I really thought the day would never come. I am almost about to experience my last halloween at home, which as cheesy as that sounds, I am actually getting sad about. I will never be home on Halloween again to see the little kids in my neighborhood go house to house all down my street. I will never get to go to my neighbor’s annual Halloween bonfire and get warm apple cider. As sad and scary as it is to move onto the next chapter, I have accepted that this is the last year I will ever walk the halls at Heritage, and I’m ready for that change. I am grateful for everything I have learned in high school, and all the relationships I have built. I am so excited for everything that is still to come this year. I can confidently say that I am making the most of every second of my senior year and I plan to enjoy every moment while we still have it.